Now that the pies and cakes and cookies and candies of the holidays are all gone, it was time to start working on what they did to me while they were here. I was seriously considering covering the mirrors with black crepe.
I am an emotional eater. If I am uneasy, frightened, angry…I eat. If I don’t have my normal structure…I eat. If there’s too much available, I have to have a bite of it all before I can walk away. I’d say it’s a compulsion, but it’s really more of a bad habit combined with a coping mechanism.
I could feel really bad about that, but this year, I took advantage of having a partner that I could be honest and open with and I talked about a lot of what I was feeling. And, honestly, I’m lucky all I do is eat. So, I’m not going to feel bad about it. And, when I’m feeling strong, like I am now, I’ll do the opposite and work those worry pounds off.
My employer ran an article about the new year and weight from a health insurance perspective and I downloaded one of the workout apps on my iphone and I finally got around to downloading my music to my iphone and I’ve found a really good stretching workout that I can do on days when I take long walks and a really good workout that focuses on a strong and flexible back and legs that I can do on other days, combined with a short walk. A good portion of my workout time this week was spent finding those and that worked fine because it’s been raining all week and walking was pretty much off the table. But, even the prep work to find the app, download the workouts, sample them; it was all contributing to the goal. And, that feels good.
The most important thing is to find something I enjoy enough that I can look forward to it. I relish the thought of all those back stretching yoga poses every morning. They actually feel good. I have to remember; it’s not a burden to take care of myself.
Along with that, there’s my regular meals, which are healthy and well balanced and correctly proportioned and prepared with the max flavor and the minimum unnecessary fat. Really, all I had to cut out was the bedtime sweets, which according to every dietician, are the devil’s own bad idea.
I’m already down 2 pounds. But, I do catch myself wandering in circles in the kitchen at about 8pm, looking for cake scraps. One trick I’ve learned, and I don’t know why this works on me…probably because I’m secretly really lazy…but I floss and brush my teeth when I find myself wandering for snacks. Given the obligation to floss and brush again if I eat, I’m just too lazy and can happily pass on the snack.
Yeah, I recognize that for the rationalization that it is, but I’m not arguing with anything that works this good. It has something to do with making a choice. I choose to floss and brush and then I choose not to do it again. It’s so much easier for me to do stuff that’s a choice than it is to consistently do things that i see as an obligation.
I got up this morning and made my first I spy block.
Barb cut the 4.5” squares with her “go” and sent them. I dug through my 2” strips this morning for strips long enough for the borders.
I think I should have plenty, huh? Anyway, now it’s just figuring out how I can mass produce them. I haven’t made this block before, so I’m looking forward to this little project. This is one down and there are three more ready to start.
This year, I’m hoping to start going to the Linus meetings every month. Like signing up for the BOMs at the quilt shop, it’s another attempt to get me out among people. I am incredibly guilty of spending too much time alone. What better way to combine quilting and fellowship than at a volunteer opportunity day.
But, first I have to go to that pesky job again.
Don’t get me wrong, I know how lucky I am to have it. But as my coffee mug says, “a bad day quilting is better than a good day at work.”
Be well. Have fun. Start something new or finish something old. Add a little fun to your day. If you set half a candy bar down today for tomorrow’s snack, blow me a kiss.