I wrote yesterday about my frustration with my Mom. Then, I took it out. Today, I've written two posts and both of them ended up being about my frustration with my Mom, despite the fact I tried to keep that out of them. So, I'm going to write a short blog and move on with my "fun day" with Sydney. But, it's also important to me that I keep this positive. I refuse to get bogged down in years of hurt feelings and let that ruin a day that I can spend with my daughter, trying not to pass along those same frustrations to another generation.
Since I got up this morning, I've been working on my Indian Orange Peel quilt. I've made several sections and hope to make some more before the stores and movie theaters open. I've also posted some pictures of finished quilts to the manquilters website.
Ya' know, quilting and being with my little family and friends, both live and net, give me so much pleasure. It just frustrates me that a planned visit from my Mom can throw everything into such chaos. There are years of hurt feelings that play into that. And, despite the distance I've put between she and I, a phone call, a letter, an email, a visit, all these just bring all that back up for me. I just can't deal with the level of control that she tries to exert over me when we interact. Surely, at some point, I'll become her equal and receive the consideration I so deserve and demand from everyone...but I'm afraid that it will be too late by then to have the kind of relationship I want with her.
So, I'll just keep on quilting, and I'll keep on working on my parenting skills and being the best parent I can be, and protecting myself and my family from those that want to bring us chaos.
I'm going to celebrate my successes by posting an updated picture of my Indian Orange Peel quilt. This is going to take a long time to finish, but oh, my, is it ever going to be worth it. It's the most complex piecing I've ever done so I'm glad that there's no fabric matching. Just pile the strips in a box and pull two at random and make a section. Love that! Take care and have a great Friday and if I don't post again, have a great 4th of July. We're shopping for clothes and I hope we'll be able to fit in a movie and some popcorn to stay out of the heat. Lane