But, I wanted to take some time to talk about how I'm feeling. I know that depression affects a lot of people and I can't speak to what it is like for them, but I think I can illustrate what it is like for me.
Depression for me is like an inflating bubble that blocks my path of real life.
Sometimes, I can fight the bubble...
But, sometimes I can't.
Sometimes, I have to sit and study it. But, I have to make sure I don't sit and study for too long. Real life awaits my arrival.
The therapist says that depression is anger turned inward. For me, that's generally anger that I hold in because I just don't think expressing it will do any good. Doesn't stop me from feeling it, but it's pointless to express it, and it sometimes ends up turned inward toward me.
What I'm trying to learn is to climb over the bubble, acknowledging that it's there, but refusing to let it further impede my progress.