No more time for being afraid

There is too much going on in my life for me to be afraid of anything. So, I tossed my last prevailing fear from before I turned 50 into the wind and rainy weather yesterday morning and took my class supply list to the quilt store and talked to the owner. I met her with my apologies for waiting three weeks to get back with her and never mentioned that I had been putting it off because...well, I want to teach so bad. What if I do it and I hate it? Better to want something than to get it and not like it, right? At least there is some pleasure in the wanting, but what is there in the hating?

Anyway, I recognize that is stupid. After all, there is so much going on in my life right now that so what if I find something I hate. That just frees up time for things I enjoy. Right? Please agree. And, I got to use my 20% teachers discount for the first time. Hey, fringe benies, right?

Anyway, I got the yellow fabrics for the Dresden Plates. Here are the first two mounted. The others are pinned to their squares so I can just pick one up and go.

The golden yellow tone of the fabric is washed out in this picture, probably by the gold that is going to be the centers and part of the faux garden path sashing. I got a slightly better picture here. The background is the same shade as the solid gold, but with all the white "ditzy's" on it, it looks much lighter. Not a reproduction fabric. I changed my mind at the last minute. I tried out a print from my stash, just for color/shade and loved it and decided to do that instead of the solid. I keep telling myself, it's okay to mix styles and periods, so long as respect is paid to one by the other. A new print respects the remake of the blocks that are made from vintage fabrics. I think that's pretty respectful of the vintage fabrics. At least I hope so. Anyway, never going to be a judged quilt except by me and you.

Roll, Roll Cotton Boll is practically finished. I finished all the quilting yesterday, sitting in the sewing room, listening to Rob and Topsy tell old stories. It was really nice. Anyway, I sewed the binding on with machine and started the hand work to sew it to the back and realized that I had not reset the tension on the machine from using invisible thread and so the red thread that I used to sew on the green binding was showing...like an eighth of an inch showing when I pulled it tight. That's not right. So, I've got to go around it on the machine again...correctly this time... and then I can start the finger work on this. In the meantime, I get to sew plates to backgrounds.

But, I swear, judge. I didn't mess up on purpose so that I could do what I'd rather do. Honest.

So, this is miss Sydney, before the humidity did a number on her ringlets. Actually I was trying to get her to do something to relax those and she said, just give it a few minutes and sure enough, we walked out the door and it fell into loose and soft curls all over her head.

And, a pic of Sydney and Topsy and me.

Sydney is trying to impress Grandma with how grown up she can be. Unfortunately, it's coming across as smart mouth. So, we've had an escalating series of warning shots fired that this morning, culminated in a full on verbal assault while Grandma was in the shower. She is enjoying a much better attitude now. Sometimes, you just gotta remind 'em who's boss. And, who's gonna be here after Grandma goes home. I guess being all grown up wasn't really worth it.

Today, we're all driving up to have lunch with LD. Fun, fun. We never eat out this much. We took Topsy for Thai food last night. Her first time. She is an adventurous eater.

And, lest I forget that I have a giveaway going on, Bratling, you won the coin toss. Please shoot me an email with your snail address and I'll drop them in the mail.

Everybody have a great Sunday. Some of us lost an hour last night. I sure could use it back!!



Tina said...

Your title and then your entry hit my like a ton of bricks. I so agree with you. My life has been totally turned upside down for the last little while and I am afraid of everything, this morning I thought when is enough enough? There is not much that brings me joy these days and it's hard to find ground to stand on. I like you idea of having more free time to enjoy things when you stop being afraid of another thing. Could work for me too..>Thanks...hope you have a great day.

Coloradolady said...

I enjoyed your post this morning! I anxiously await to hear the details about this class and hope and cross my fingers I can make it to the class. I love your choices for the Dresden plates. Looks wonderful, but then again, I knew it would!

Sydney looks so pretty and so grown up!! That little talk you had sounded so familiar!!!

Elizabeth said...

I lost my hour yesterday afternoon. It is easier to trick my mind into it than loosing it overnight. DST is the lamest invention ever. Just pick one and stick with it, eh?

Loving the yellow! Those Dresdens are going to be amazing! A Sunflower Dresden is on my list of quilts to do. I'm really wanting to start work on it, but I have deemed 2012 the year of the WIP (Ph.D, UFO, whichever) and am determined to finish a bunch of started projects before I start anything new.

Sydney is such a beautiful young lady. So glad she has you. She's come a long way.

xo -E

Richard Healey said...

I keep looking at the Dresden's and I am getting closer and closer to making one. Please tell me its easy and not to be afraid.


Becky said...

What a wonderful picture! Miss Sydney gets more beautiful every time I see her! Enjoy your day!

Kath said...

Your MIL is called Topsy, how charming :-)

I have not seen Sydney before, she is a beauty!

Marei said...

I have so gotten myself stuck in that stupid mindset of not trying something because of fear that I won't be good at it/won't like it/will make an ass of myself....whatever. It's a total waste of time and energy. Glad that you are going for it, Lane, and I wish you success!!
Love the dresdens; starting some for my mom later this week.

Megan said...

Lane - fabulous that you were able to act in spite of your fear. That's a real achievement. Fabulous, too, that you want something so bad: I think it's terrific to have new challenges and goals and keep pushing yourself to move into areas of discomfort. Inspirational post today. Thank you.

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