What a week this has been.  Disappointments, ethical dilemmas, feeling slighted, feeling pressured.  Lots of fear of making a mistake. 

Sometimes, I look at my week and wonder how I make it through.  That’s the funny thing about looking backward.  It gets all distorted by the present.  During none of the situations that came up this week did I ever think that I just couldn’t do that.  I did what I had to do.  And, I registered complaint when I thought it was the right thing to do, but I didn’t push those complaints to try to make others see it like I do…that’s not my responsibility.  Those I interact with, from my boss to my kid, have to make their own decisions and think about things in their own way.  I don’t have to make them think like me.  So, I can say what I have to say and walk away.

That’s VERY new behavior for me. 

And, I like it.

And, while I am feeling exhausted by all that has happened, I’m also feeling a little bit proud that nobody else knows how exhausting it was.  Or how frustrating. 

So, today is going to be devoted to long term projects at work that I can do while I listen to loud music through my earbuds.  And, tomorrow, I’m going to pin baste a baby quilt.  Rob keeps reminding me that the baby’s mother is coming back to work…soon!

He’s subtle.  He’s polite.  He’s unyielding.

And, I like it.

Be well.  Have a great Friday.  Plan to spend at least part of the weekend just focused on you and what you want to do.  Even if you have to stay up late to do it.



Kath said...

"I don’t have to make them think like me. So, I can say what I have to say and walk away."

Good for you Lane. I wish some of my friends and family would take this on board!
Have a relaxing weekend and enjoy what you do. I'm visiting old friends and my son, which makes me very happy.

Elizabeth said...

Life is exhausting. The trick is to not let it drag you under. Still working on that one. One more day to go and it's the weekend. I'll have my earbuds in today too.

xo -E

lw said...

I like your way of thinking. Standing up for yourself without having to control the other person.

I can't wait to see how your new baby quilt turns out.

By the way, you've convinced that excellence in quilting has a lot to do with being willing to rip quilting out if it isn't the quality you envisioned. I started to quilt a denim quilt yesterday-- two rows in, and I stopped. Tonight, I take it all out and start over.

lindaroo said...

Thanks for validating my decision to stay up until 2:00 am last night, sewing! I'm on spring break from my job at a school, and my time is eaten away by dr. appts, discussions with the spouse, and errands. I'm glad I had some time to myself with my sewing machine!
The spouse has changed from respecting my sometimes different opinions, to seeing disagreements as disloyalty. It's exhausting. I must learn to communicate in ways that are helpful. There's my complaint, just to vent, not really doing anyone any good.

Coloradolady said...

It must have been something in this Texas air, it has been a bear of a week. And I have to say, I don't think I handled it as well as you.

I hope to get some fabric cutting tonight as I need to make two wedding gift quilts, I need to finish a baby quilt, and I need to finish a graduation quilt. All in about a month and a half...with more on my plate than I can see over! Oh well...one day at a time!

Have a wonderful weekend.

qltmom9 said...

Nope, new job and too many responsibilities means no quilting THIS weekend, but NEXT weekend...you


Shay said...

It sounds like you've found a way to take responsibility for your part of whatever happens and have finally been able to let the other stuff go. That's great! (because its so hard to do !) I imagine the feeling was very liberating.