Sick girls

Syd and I were supposed to go clothes shopping last Friday.  When she came to me and said she didn’t feel like it, I asked if I needed to call an ambulance. 

That’s an armageddon, end of the world, head to the bunker type warning.

And, we had to have a very frank and awkward conversation.  Incidentally, if anyone asks, it doesn’t take parents of different gender to raise a kid.  It takes parents that are willing to have awkward and uncomfortable conversations and I am proud to say that all the awkward and weird talks she and I had in the past have made it possible for us to talk in an honest, frank and mature way today.

A few minutes later, and she had a doctor’s appointment and a couple hours after that, she was on antibiotics and all was well with the world again.  Except she still didn’t feel like shopping. 

Hey, the doctor costs a heck of a lot less than the mall.  And, yes, I do realize that there’s something wrong with that.

Unfortunately, my other girl, my little cat Nirti, didn’t get so lucky.  She’s been getting sick, and each time, I’d give her a lot of protein rich food and she’d get better.  But, after a while, she’d get sick again.  So, it was time for some research, and then, the vet. 

I went into the room and said “I think my cat has diabetes.”  The doctor said, “it doesn’t sound like it.  We need to run several tests”.  And, dutifully, I said yes.  Several hundred dollars later (no, I’m not going to tell you how many…it’s embarassing) and he comes in and says “your cat has diabetes.”

Okay, so why did I have to pay for all those tests when I did the diagnosis? 

Not going there.  Just glad my cat is better.

So, now, she gets a drop of insanely expensive insulin by injection, twice a day.  And, no I wasn’t at all squeamish about giving the injections.  I just had the doc show me one time.  I was so blown away by the price, the injection was a piece of cake.

Anyway, we changed her diet permanently.  And, she’ll be on this insulin for a month, then we’ll assess whether she needs to stay on insulin or if we can control it with diet alone.  And, if she needs to stay on the insulin, we’ll go to a much more affordable brand.  But, this is supposed to be the best stuff for jump starting the pancreas and then discontinuing. 

So, that was all very stressful for me.  I know other people could have just taken all that in stride, but I can’t.  So, when the crises were over and my iphone went berserk, I turned into an angry, swearing fool.  Then, we went to Syd’s choir concert; dress rehearsal for the choir competition next week.  And, having to sit still, in the dark, and listen to beautiful music was calming and I was able to talk to Rob about what had really been bothering me.  And, it all got better after that. 

And, miraculously, overnight, the phone thing resolved itself.  I didn’t do anything that I know of.  But, it’s all good today, after a week of pissing me off.  It’s kind of a let down to have it resolve so suddenly.

But, a good kind of let down.

And, it gave me something innocuous to vent at yesterday, when I needed it real bad.

Everybody have a great Wednesday.  It’s cloudy outside, but for me, the sun is shining because I’ve taken care of business and problems are resolved and I am feeling pretty good about being me.

Now, where did I leave off on my real life?  It would be nice to pick it back up at that point.

Unfortunately, life doesn’t wait for you to get back to it.  It just keeps percolating along during every crisis, forcing us to join it where it is, not particularly where we’d like to step back into it. 

Did I miss anything?

Lane